English / Summer

Summer is here! Now what do I do?

Everything is supposed to be fine, and all my academic worries were supposed to be temporarily discarded. School thoroughly alters your thought of what is necessary, and what isn't, making you believe that in every moment of time, productivity is necessary; in academics or extracurriculars. This is how I got brutally owned.

So, it was (and still is?) basically like this: Every moment I spent procrastinating inevitably caused me to feel worse and worse, due to my lack of productivity. At the same time, I understood that school work wasn't even a realistic form of productivity. Still, I couldn't put aside the production complex school ingrained in my head. I was wasting paper, time and brain power. I was beat by school. Even with knowledge of this 'system', I succumbed to it for reasons unknown to myself, and told myself that I would do the work. I ended every day not doing any of my own activities or succeeding academically. And still, even during the summer time, this 'production complex' affects me.

I wish I was a better writer. That's what you get for having English as your second language. That's what you get for not listening in class. Thats what you get, dick.
Stop talking to yourself.
No, you.
Stop getting sidetracked. Just keep on writing, fool.
Fine.

Anyways, summer's a time to redistribute your life, and talent points (too much World of Warcraft). But then again, World of Warcraft is just an allegory of life, right?! Pseudo-existential retardation is the best. I'm not really into people that are into existentialism. It's probably cause I'm bitter and think that people give themselves too much credit for being intellectual. Yeah, I'm on crack, and the heat is affecting me. I'll see you later when I can iterate my thoughts correctly.