Somehow along the lines of somewhere

Someone decided I did everything right and decided to congratulate me for it. Maybe it was me, maybe it was someone else. Either way, with the outcome of my actions, I'd like to believe that at some point in time I was doing everything right and I have been gifted because of it.

I am so fucking lucky

I am so fucking lucky.

thank god life

i'm so grateful to be surrounded by legitimately beautiful and talented people. it really helps with pushing my own standard of self as well.

Game

It's honestly really simple. Keep calm, be yourself, be courteous. As everyone knows, it's not so easy to execute. First off, keeping calm. Keeping calm means being able to manage your emotions. Being able to manage your emotions when a new prospect comes into sight requires confidence and experience. Secondly, being yourself. Being yourself requires one to keep calm. Thirdly, being courteous. Being courteous requires both being yourself and keeping calm, as well as knowledge on your partner that supersedes the first two categories. So simple is obviously not easy.

What I'm trying to say is that I can't even keep calm for the most part. I'm noted by others for my courage and potential, but complete lack of success with making ends meet (due to many variables, which are sometimes independent by my personal execution). Even with options, the best opportunity remains the best opportunity. Don't think so much about. Just do it. The problem with this concept is that not everything relies on my own executional fortitude. I'm still required to wait, and during the down time, I maintain myself, and continue productive activities, yet... the prospects swamp my thoughts. Over-thinking permeates my being.

I don't think it'll stop until I achieve success even with my overarching anxieties and lack of chillness. While in a circumstance bearing potential, I don't think my anxieties and fears manifest themselves too noticeably into my behavior, but at the same time it might, and in no way could that be good. Without an ounce of finalized success, I am weary of the uncertainty of what could be and I have no perception of what is actually possible.

i felt so alive, years ago

is it cliche to say, you're dead inside?

wasted time happens to all of us

responsibility goes perfect with depravity

get drunk in the night

pretend your life's alright

wake up, the rain is pouring

tell me who you thought that you'd become

i'm sorry, your life's a disappointment

(when we were young)

you knew

just because that you've grown older

doesn't mean you know what you're doing

oh the kids were right all along now

how I thought, how I thought

growing up is a lie, I realized

is it to soon to say, i've lost the way

smoke and carbonations realization

desnsitivity is just a disability

get drunk in the night

pretend your lifes alright

wake up, the rain is pouring

tell me who you thought that you'd become

i'm sorry, your life's a disappointment

I've written a lot of private posts for myself recently, but all I'm really trying to say is

NO CONFIDENCE WEEK STARTS NOW!!!

Well

Songwriting is the portrayal of experience. Unlike many other crafts, it doesn't take a formula of dedication, motivation and persistence to the same degree to create something beautiful and meaningful. Making something beautiful and meaningful require an intense desire to reflect experience from a persons life into it's aural manifestation. Thus it's dependent on living and what a person has done in their lifetime, which isn't why hard work is scaled to successfulness in music.

This is why so many people, who would otherwise be deemed fuck ups by society are worshiped as musicians. This is why those repressed by society (at least to some degree) don't comprehend the depth that goes into that simple 4 chord progression that they think they could've come up with, but didn't (and couldn't).

Passion, motivation (temporary or long-lasting) and talent are the means to the end, but persistence and understanding hardly play into the equation. For certain individuals who encompass the first three characteristics, the latter traits may enhance them, but will not replace them. Although there aren't many definite examples, its pretty obvious that Radiohead, The Beatles, Modest Mouse, or My Bloody Valentine demonstrate these principles. I don't wish to be them, but I wish to be great like them.