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+ is used for any semi-unrelated thoughts.

I've become some strange, rational being of doom. After a phase of encouraging myself to become the best I could, I removed many of my own flaws. Of course, I am human and will never be perfect, and don't plan on doing so-

+Perfection means a complete unbalance in emotion. Nobody would remain human if they ever achieved the state of "Perfection". They would only be able to express positive and 'beneficial' emotions!

but regardless, by removing many of my flaws I may have also removed many emotions from myself (as of now). By doing so, I think I've become cold. I gain the ability to help my friends by not getting carried away with their personal problems and listening without interfering. In other words, being able to carry a burden without being completely personally involved. I'm not a pro at it yet, but I'm definetely better than most people.

+I don't plan on becoming a psychiatrist, at all.

Regardless of this ability, it's not worth it at all. Living in a mundane world of constant observation and decision making based upon rationality is both boring and restricting. Without feeling strongly, I will never be able to reach out past the surface to empathize. I am human. I will not stay devoid of emotion forever, but I have been for an unreasonably long time. How did I become this way? I'm sure that someone can improve themselves without removing their emotion. Or could they? I don't feel as if I've done anything negative in the process to deserve this.

+I cannot empathize. I CANNOT EMPATHIZE. I've gotten "you don't understand" from two of my friends consecutively. How can I live in a separate emotional universe than my friends like this? How?! God...

I feel remote sadness when thinking about the fact that I can't empathize, but overall, I'm just tired of feeling so little. I'm bored. Boredom is my strongest emotion. How sad is that?