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I'm emotionally neutral. I feel as if I'll stay that way forever sometimes. While my friends are feeling intense euphoria, severe depression, love or any other sort of intense emotion, my own are turning stale. I don't remember what it is like to feel strongly anymore. I'm a little sad, but I feel as if I'm on a very long cycle of neutrality that will end with an extremely sharp, negative spiral of emotional doom. I can feel something bad crawling towards me. Why must my welcome to the emotional world be so dreadful?