Fuck All

When I refer to people, I refer to people I know

There's no point of becoming a bitter, old man. The point of becoming bitter is a coping strategy for things that you believe you cannot solve, so you become bitter to cope with them. It means you care, but it also means you're inactive enough to do anything about it. So what counts more? Doing something of course. There's never 'nothing you can do'. 

In fact, if someone were to be outwardly bitter, it's almost a guarantee that they aren't doing shit. People who are doing shit about things they feel are bad about their lives or the world don't become bitter. There would be no place for bitterness. For instance, think of the typical old person thinking to himself "grrr... kids". This may be a stereotype, but even HERE in high school, I know that there are little fucking kids who think they are very grown up with this mindset. Are they right? Do they have a right to go "grrr... kids"? Of course. But that doesn't change the fact that they have to both live with it and find a way to deal with it instead of pissing themselves off.  I'm not here to offer a fucking solution, in fact I may be as bad as these bitter people nowadays, but I'm conscious of it and I'll surely stop if I even breach barriers between acting like one of these bitter, mature kids over myself. 

There's just one thing I have to say to all these arty, depressed kids I see everywhere these days. You're not Elliott Smith, Nick Drake, or Kurt Cobain. First of all, Elliott Smith and the rest had legitimate psychological disorders, and had a legitimate coping strategy- music. Even through their support and all, they was still unable to feel better about himself. I obviously don't know them personally but it's probably given that 99% of you are not suffering like they were, and regardless, 'artistic' people I've been around act similarly to them in the sense that they are bitter and affected by such little things around them. I don't know if this is just a trait of characters I've been around, but I wouldn't be surprised if they were attributed to more similar people. 

People seem to victimize themselves for the sake of who knows what. I could only think of the following reasons- 1. to boost their artistic character 2. to put themselves in an easier position. But wait- how is putting yourself in the position of the victim an EASIER option? It clearly is from what I've seen because when you are the supposed 'victim', everything bad that is happening to you is not because of 'you' but because of 'other things around you'. I've victimized myself when I shouldn't have. 

The difference between me criticizing this concept and participating in it and others who only participate in it is, well, once again... how conscious we are of it. The first step to changing stuff you dislike or hate about yourself or the world is recognizing it. Of course this alone won't do anything. I'll have to take man steps.