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Yesterday I got in an argument with a friend of mine. Not a good friend, but we get along. Regardless I know there are many interactions I can't have with this guy.

1. Argument. With argument, any hope is lost and frustration erupts in every direction because he will get easily frustrated and give up and commence with the concept that either 'it's not important' or 'you will not get it'.
2. Anything regarding his behavior. He can get annoying at many times, and if I were to address this, he would most likely get defensive.

Later, I told another friend what our argument was about. I got a response here and there, but received no real advice. After I completed a lengthy and conclusive message, the response I got was regarding her own personal life. I found this to be depressing because it was so in character for her to talk about her own life when I was trying to tell her something that I considered important and was already in the middle of. In this example, I wanted to tell her how I felt- that she was self centered and that it's happened many times before. Once again I realized I had limitations and that she was another person who wouldn't accept a confrontational method. I have tried before.

Recently I've been direct and stated obviously mean or unfair things people have been doing to myself or others. On two accounts my confrontational method has failed entirely. I realized that it only works towards fairly self aware people. My relationships with my 'unaware acquaintences' create a lot of tension on my part because at least 20-30% of these 'friendships' I keep with these people are based upon restriction.

The problem I have with this is a lot of people don't have enough self awareness and need indirect means of altering their behavior. This is upsetting to me because it causes me to believe that this is the cause of the severe potential barrier. I believe to be able to succeed above and beyond in any field requires a self awareness of one's abilities and consciousness of their entire character and aspects that hold them back. If someone is unable to comprehend themselves and their capacity as a person and artist/doctor/musician/researcher/insert talent here how could they maximize their potential?

Fuck that.